Hmmmm.

*clears throat*
*starts singing*

If God is on our side
who can be against us
If God is on our side
We won't be afraid
Though the mountains may fall
And the sky will crumble
There ain't nothin' gonna stand in our way


Hah. Anyways, finished the 30-hour famine. Went pretty well.

Urgh. My thoughts are really scattered. I cannot gather them.

I just wonder... how many times do you trust someone with your heart before they stop dropping it on the floor? Oi.

Knee. Ouch.

Mm. So I'm in the midst of the 30 hour famine. Only about 5 hours in. I'm kind of hungry, but not really. It's cool. Hmm I had Physio today. It hurt quite a bit. The muscle stim just wouldn't stim my muscles, and would only really hurt. So. Knee problems?? Yes. But! I did find out I have no torn cartilage or ligaments. Praise Jesus! However, I do have a massive bruise on my bone, which of course takes forever to heal. Another thing, when I hurt my knee, my muscles pulled my bone out of place and traumatized the tendons under my knee. I think. The doc was really not explaining all that well. Heh. In any case, I have a bit of physio to go before I'm completely healed, but I do totally see God healing me, even if slowly. Heh. I think he's doing it on purpose that way, so I won't be so indep. So anyways. Yeah it's such a beautiful day, I want to be outside, but I'm so insanely exhausted. And in about 7 hours I'll need to be at the church to be a leader for dear youthlings. Pray for me! I need strength and rest! Haha. Love my kids, but sometimes, especially when I'm tired... Mmm. Think I'll go have a nap. Cool.

Liberty and Peace!

474747474747474747474747! When I say 40 you say 7, 40 - 7 40 - 7, what does that spell? 47! what's Joce's fave number? 47! Go Go GO!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

Well. This is my 47th post. Hahahahaha. 47 is my absolute favoritest number... EVER! Yeah dude, I'm like wicked weird. I do not care. I love it, I love it, I LOVE IT! I don't know exactly why but I do! I think it's the power of 40 days and 7 days that get me. Hmm. P-p-p-powaful! Oh Glory. Haha. Anyways. I'm going to be a geek and post another post. My 48 post. Mmk? Mmmk.

Patience and Joy!!

Hmmmm.

Hmm. What a day!

Powerful day at SCA!
I got to be on Jason's ministry team. Something inside my spirit clicked. I want to do that all the time man! Wow! It's crazy because after that "high" there was a low. But, I figured something out tonight. If I can just have someone to talk to, I'm usually pretty good. I believe that my left knee is healing. At an accelarated rate. I did a whole bunch more intensive exercises at physio. I'm still so weak and it frustrates me to no end. I push myself way too hard sometimes. Hah. It's ok. God still loves me. His hand grips my heart. If you know me I don't cry. Ever. But I did. Quite a bit today. A brother & sister in my youth group, their dad is dying, he'll probably die in the next few days. My heart hurts for them. Hmm.

Patience and Passion.

Have a fireball of exploding glory!

Budddddyyyy!

Hooray! Hooray!
My bestest friend is home!
Hooray! Hooray!
This is a silly poem!

Hooray! Hooray!
I'm so happy to see her hear!
Hooray! Hooray!
Everbody needs to cheer!


Yay, my best friend, Britt, is home from China. I'm really really really happy!
Yay!

an understanding.

the tears on my cheeks are not fake

not like leaves gathered by a rake

not like rain caught by the gutter

or like popcorn dripping with butter

the tears in my eyes; they are real

they show my pain, and how I feel

I feel so alone, in this dark place

I shrink away from that evil face

I know in my head my Help is there

I know in my mind, He does care

But in my heart, it's still not found

And so I stand on this shaky ground

You love me regardless of my doubts

no matter how many times I'm Out

keep on giving me Your powerful love

intense, pure, that I'm so unworthy of

hold me when I need to cry

I'll spread my wings and fly

soar with the eagles and

be

free

I love that my Dad etches my name onto the palm of his hand. You write important things on your hands.