How much fun can you have with a shopping cart!

Ahh. Easter.

I had so much fun with my sister today. It pretty much started after work today. I came home and she said she was bored. I asked her if she wanted to work out with me. So we worked out for about 1 hour. It was so funny and fun. After we worked out, I made a banana cream pie{it was soooo good}. After that we took our dog, Princess, for a walk around the rez. It was just so good. On the way home, we just really started talking about God and bible-reading. I got so excited when I heard how she's doing in that. Yay! Haha. Afterwards we came home and had our "Easter dinner". Mom, Danielle{other sister}, Renee{sister I hung out with} and myself. My mom made her to-die for ribs. So good. Afterwards me and Nee went to this random cart where we threw around a baseball. We happened along an abandoned shopping cart. Now, because my knee is so screwed up I couldn't run with it. So I just pushed down the streets with her inside, and we made people smile and laugh and it was just the awesomeness. So much laughter. Haha. Afterwards we came back and took the cart in the backyard and took a crapload of awesome photos! Gotta love it. :). Mmm. I'm so exhausted, but it was such a worth it day. This is probably the coolest day in a long time. Ever since my dad left us, it's been really hard to connect with my sisters. I still don't know how to connect to Danielle, but we've had our moments. Good times.

I love Jesus. He rawks my world and is my rock. I'm so incredibly encouraged by what he said,

"Surely I am with you always, to the very end of the age."

It's awesome. I'm so glad Renee knows that too.

Merry Happy Easter Everyone.

-Joce

Amazin' Love

Mmm. I went to church today. My favorite part was watching the worship thru movement thing. It was so powerful. These kids worshipping God thru dance. It stirred my spirit and made me so excited. :-). I think it's one of the coolest ministries. Not to say it's better than any other. By no means. Just really cool.

Jesus is awesome.

I listened.

I listened and one day I received these little niblets from the Lord.

"If you stick your toe into my presence, I'll meet you there and take you deeper, deeper, deeper further than my presence into my glory."

"Time is in my hands. Do not worry about time. You're lifetime is but a breath and 15 generations not even a second in my eyes. Let me be your master, for I am the master of time."

"Continue to be. As you know, you're a human being, not a human doing. Continue to be with me and I will show you, great and marvelous things."

"Why wouldn't I want to show you miracles, signs and wonders? I delight in you and take pleasure in you. I am your friend and sometimes I want to show you cool stuff. Like a friend shows another."

"I'm speaking forth a release in speaking in tongues. It's one evidence of filling of the Holy Spirit. I long for my people to commune with me in a way that's higher than their ways. "

What did I learn from this? God doesn't always speak essay long words. He's a God of many things. One of them being the God of the few but every wise words.

This is just another vision I had about the same time...

"I was running through a very dense forest. As I was fighting my way through; the trees would rip a piece of my flesh off. This happened continually until my whole flesh was gone and all that remained was my spirit. When my flesh became dead, I was out of the forest and I was with Jesus."

A vision or few

"I saw a field ready for harvest and the people of God were harvesting and as they harvested people's souls, the newly harvested souls would come alongside God's people and learn and grow. After a time, they too would go out and harvest souls, thirty, sixty and one hundred-fold.

Immediately after, I saw myself in an elevator going up. This represented my walk with the Lord. All of a sudden a man 7ft tall dressed in white and gold and with eyes like fire appeared to me and asked or rather told me that I would be "moved up faster". All of a sudden the elevator moved quicker, faster than any speed I imagined. I was absorbing the secrets and good things of God, but at a much more increased speed. It was as if time was the same but not. I was learning more in less time.

Afterwards, I saw a green snake-like creature tring to choke the life out of my family. He was winning. All of a sudden, I saw myself, dressed in the armor of the Lord. I drew up the sword of the spirit and renounced him in Jesus' mighty name. After a very long time of fighting... the victory was the Lords."

Hmm.

Now this is weird. Sitting here on a Tuesday night/Wednesday morning. Now you see normally I'd be in bed. Why? Well for one it is 2 in the morning. And secondly, I'd usually have to work in about 3 and half hours. However this week is special. We're missing a shift for Good Friday so they need me on nights all week. So I am working nights Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. The great thing is I never work Fridays so I don't even get an extra day off, plus I get to be incredibly exhausted! wOOT! At least I'll get money :). Anyways. After I work I need a wind-down time. I've been going for the last 11 hours all crazy like and I need to calm down before I hit the hay! Hmm. I was reading through some journal entries...

Revelation 22:1 - 6

Rev. 22:1,2

Then the angel showed me the river of the water of life, as clear as crystal, flowing from the throne of God and of the Lamd down the middle of the great street of the city. On each side of the river{of the water of life} stood the tree of life, bearing twelve crops of fruit, yielding its fruit every month. And the leaves of the tree{of life} are for the healing of the nations.

The tree, is watered by the river, which comes from the throne of God. It's leaves are for the healing of the nations. Interesting.

22: 3- 6

No longer will there be any curse. The throne of God and of the lamb will be in the city, and his servants will serve him. They will see his face, and his name will be on their foreheads. There will be no more night. They will not need the light of a lamp or the light of the sun, for the Lord will give them light. And they will reign for ever and ever. The angel said to me, "These words are trustworthy and true. The Lord, the God of the spirits of the prophets, sent his angel to show his servants the things that must soon take place.

trees - roots need watersource. The river of life waters tree of life, and water from the river flows from the throne of God who is the giver of life. Unlike normal, earthly trees, the tree of life bears fruit all year round. 12 crops of fruit. The leaves of this tree are for the healing of the nations. Because the tree bears fruit all year round. There is no specific season for healing. Healing can happen at any time. We just need to take it. It's there. All year round.

Live like you were dying

He said I was in my early forties
with a lot of life before me
when a moment came that stopped me on a dime
and I spent most of the next days
looking at the x-rays
Talking bout the options
and talking bout sweet time
I asked him when it sank in
that this might really be the real end
how's it hit you when you get that kinda news
man what'd you do

and he said
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

He said I was finally the husband
that most the time I wasn't
and I became a friend a friend would like to have
and all the sudden going fishin
wasn't such an imposition
and I went three times that year I lost my dad
well I finally read the good book
and I took a good long hard look
at what I'd do if I could do it all again

and then
I went sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I gave forgiveness I'd been denying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.

Like tomorrow was a gift and you got eternity to think about
what'd you do with it what did you do with it
what did I do with it
what would I do with it?

Sky diving
I went Rocky Mountain climbing
I went 2.7 seconds on a bull named fumanchu
and then I loved deeper and I spoke sweeter
and I watched an eagle as it was flying
and he said someday I hope you get the chance
to live like you were dying.
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying
To live like you were dying

Ramblings of youth, understanding God and the mind of Christ!

Hmm. Tonight, my heart hurts. For the youth. For my peers. I look at these kids, each one with some sort of heartache. I just want to take all the hurt away from them. I never knew I had such a passion for youth, it's taken working with them, living with them and being one of them. I know that I have no power of my own. The power comes through Jesus. I know that those kids can have a powerful testimony that can later help other kids. I know that I have a powerful testimony. I've unveiled bits and pieces of my own heartache to them. Mmm, the pain is still too fresh to tell just anyone. I need to know that the person is really interested before I reveal my heart. Or I need to know that they need to hear it. Pfft. Oi. I don't know anything.

"No eye has seen,
no ear had heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him" ---
but God has revealed it to us by his spirit.
The spirit searches all things, even the deep things of God.

Ahh. This little glimpses are amazing. To think that I've read these things so many times, and only recently are the making sense. It encourages me. Even when I'm down, lower than the lint on the belly button of a worm, I am encouraged. Even if only because I am growing.

This strikes me.

"For who has known the mind of the Lord
that he may instruct him?"

'But we have the mind of Christ.'

What?! We have the mind of Christ. I mean really think about that. That's freaking amazing. I cannot even explain my thoughts. Other than wow. Just simply freaking wow. Hmm.

Keep it real.

Stouthearted

I happened along this verse,

"When I called, you answered me; you made me bold and stouthearted."
Psalm 138: 3.

He made me bold.

I recall an old old song that I used to sing in sunday school!

"Be Bold!
Be Strong!
For the Lord your God is with you!
Be Bold!
Be Strong!
For the Lord your God is with you!
Do not be afraid!
Do not be ashamed!
For the Lord your God is with you!"

haha. all these songs are coming back to me...

"Well I went to the Enemy's camp and I
took back what he stole from me
took back what he stole from me
took back what he stole from me
Well I went to the Enemy's camp and I
took back what he stole from me
He's under my feet
He's under my feet
He's under my feet
He's under my feet
Satan is under my feet!

It's cool how something so simple, can spark so much fire and passion and comfort. My spirit is stirred up a bit more. After this week, I'm so thrilled. I get a bit of a taste. The feelings do not determine how strong my faith is. But I like the taste. God knows the desires of my heart. :).

"Pray also for me, that whenever I open my mouth, words may be given me so that I will fearlessly make known the mystery of the gospel, for which I am an ambassador in chains. Pray that I may declare it fearlessly, as I should"
Ephesians 6:19-20

Peace & Passion

-Jocelyn