heart-racing, teeth chattering exciting nervous stress

know what's stressful? Buying a car. I cannot even imagine what buying a house is like. I'm just sitting here on the edge of my seat waiting for people to call me back... urgh... it's a happy stress though... hopefully I can get this tonight!

cannot take too much more of this.

In this very moment I am angry.

So my sister gets whatever she wants all the fricking time and it drives me crazy. So she got mad because there's something wrong with the TV in the back room{which is my tv, it's back there because i agreed to leave it back there because I didnt have a cable for it in my room}. So in a fit of rage she ripped out a cord. My mom saunters in here and tells me this. Instant anger. Not so much about the TV, but because she's got this attitude this size of Canada and serious anger problems. So my mom goes on and on about how TV's don't last anyways.

What the fricking crap?! There are days when I just cannot stand this. I'm starting to calm down, don't worry I'll get over it too. No reason for a life crisis, not having a meltdown. Sue me if all I've got to talk to in a pinch is a stupid website. Whatever.

I'm Out.

Clear Fountain Vs. Stagnant Swamp

Hmm.

I was just reading Ephesians 5 here. I've read it a thousand times, but I just caught this tidbit in verse 4.

Nor should there be obscenity, foolish talk or coarse joking, which are out of place, but rather thanksgiving.

Ok. That's the NIV version. The NASV says something to the tune of no filthiness or silly talk.

Don't talk dirty or silly. Hmm. Now I'm a little more careful with the dirty talk than I am with the silliness. Maybe this is just me and all of you have totally gotten this, but really silly talk has no purpose. It does not further kingdom and most often makes me look like a fool. Hmm. I don' think that this means I can't be funny. The silly in this means foolish. Man proverbs is chalked full of wise vs. foolish.

Hmm. Proverbs 10:31 {message style}

A good person's mouth is a clear fountain of wisdom; a foul mouth is a stagnant swamp.

a clear fountain.
a stagnant swamp.

all i really know is i want to be more on the clear fountain side. how much more appealing to God and others.

hmm.
ponder it.

j to the ocelyn.